Resolving to commit to an affirmation

Unlike most foolish people, I rarely make New Year's resolutions.  I recognize that they are usually broken and then serve to remind us of yet another way in which we have broken yet another commitment to ourselves.  The only resolution that I make is usually not to make a resolution.  I have NEVER broken this resolution when made.

2012 will be no exception.  This year I committed to getting healthier and working on myself.  I fell down a bit on that job, but I've been reaffirming more lately and intend to reaffirm more after the hubbub of the holidays.  If this happens to fall on January 1, then so be it.  I refuse to look at it as a resolution though, more like a reaffirmation.  Maybe I'm just being fancy with words but I don't care.

I signed up for a challenge on Facebook to move 500 miles in one year.  When I initially signed up, I thought it was literally just moving, and it was only upon the final sign up through Spark People (this is how the group has decided to log its miles) that I realized that they only mean run/walk. 

Ooops.

And the group is a mixed bag -- people like me who are struggling and then your runners who were so pumped from their 5 mile run this morning that they decided to 6 tonight.  Um, what??

I can't try to compete with those people.  I'm not going to compete with those people.  I figure if I am even TRYING to walk (much less run) an average of 10 miles a week, then I'm going to be in better shape and generally feel better about myself.

Maybe I'll see the number on the scale change, but you know what?  Maybe I never will.  I'm trying to think about that in a new way too.  Obviously, I want to be in the One-derland (still hanging around the 210 mark, which is a minor victory considering the holiday temptations that I don't always pass up) but what if I am walking/running 10 miles a week and doing so without feeling like I'm going to die during or after?  Isn't THAT the key thing? 

It's easy to think that here by myself in front of the computer.  It's another to think it when I'm hanging out in a room full of skinny people. 

It's something I resolve to continue to work on, think about, and write to you about!

Since this is likely the last post for this year, I'd like to wish you and yours a very Merry Christmas and a happy, healthy New Year!

much love,

Heather